I have spent years feeling like I didn't really have any worth, like I wasn't good enough, like I didn't achieve anything with my life. Of course being a mother is the most amazing job in the world and I am blessed with the job title "Mumma" BUT I need more.... I have known this for a while but couldnt decide what to do. I over think every choice, think of a million reasons why I cannot do it and talk myself out of things because I might fail.
Yesterday I took a step, on a whim I applied for a course for next year, I applied online so there is no paperwork to wait for, to leave lying around the house uncompleted.. Its done. I also filled out studylink forms online.. no backing out (well I could but I am not going to) I am doing it. No anxiety over the choice... I just DID IT.. and bugger me it felt amazing. 2011 is going to be the year I make things happen. I am going to do things I always dreamed of and in 2012 when I step into my 30th year on this earth I will feel like I have worth, I will feel like I am good enough. THAT is my goal :)
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Monday, November 15, 2010
Tuesday, November 2, 2010
November
Exams are over, I stopped work last month . . . time to focus on me and the kids and the house!
My goals for November:
*clear the house - massive declutter, clear the hallway, get our bedroom in order and get out baby stuff, oh and declutter!!
*get myself back in kilter, try and spend some more time on me and the kids and feel a bit calmer and also work on my health which aint so good.
Then in December, my goals are to spend heaps and HEAPS of time with the kids, making Xmas stuff and enjoying the sunshine etc and generally unwidning and having quality time before the baby comes.
I have finally got myself over the hurdle of having to keep everything. It started with a dream a few weeks ago, about our house burning down. I dreamt I could rebuild and this lovely new house had a place for everything and was so nice. I thought about this for a few days and then realised I can still have this! I realised that I have sooo much stuff but I wouldnt really miss much - so why keep it now? It is really holding me down and holding me back and stopping me from enjoying what I love.... so its time to go!! I am so much more ruthless now!!
I have a traler on the lawn I can fill with rubbish, and the boot is empty so I can fill it and donate it. YAY
Only drawback is this week my pelvis and hips are so sore and I cant do much, but baby steps!! ANd the mindset has been the hardest thing to change so I am glad I have finally overcome that!!! BRING ON THE DECLUTTERING!
To celebrate, I am hoping to be able to repaint the lounge by the end of November. I already have brand new curtains so it is going to look fantastic and I cant wait!!!
My goals for November:
*clear the house - massive declutter, clear the hallway, get our bedroom in order and get out baby stuff, oh and declutter!!
*get myself back in kilter, try and spend some more time on me and the kids and feel a bit calmer and also work on my health which aint so good.
Then in December, my goals are to spend heaps and HEAPS of time with the kids, making Xmas stuff and enjoying the sunshine etc and generally unwidning and having quality time before the baby comes.
I have finally got myself over the hurdle of having to keep everything. It started with a dream a few weeks ago, about our house burning down. I dreamt I could rebuild and this lovely new house had a place for everything and was so nice. I thought about this for a few days and then realised I can still have this! I realised that I have sooo much stuff but I wouldnt really miss much - so why keep it now? It is really holding me down and holding me back and stopping me from enjoying what I love.... so its time to go!! I am so much more ruthless now!!
I have a traler on the lawn I can fill with rubbish, and the boot is empty so I can fill it and donate it. YAY
Only drawback is this week my pelvis and hips are so sore and I cant do much, but baby steps!! ANd the mindset has been the hardest thing to change so I am glad I have finally overcome that!!! BRING ON THE DECLUTTERING!
To celebrate, I am hoping to be able to repaint the lounge by the end of November. I already have brand new curtains so it is going to look fantastic and I cant wait!!!
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